Synesthesia And Me
When I recognized my synesthesia I was startled, simultaneously realizing that I already knew I had it. A few weeks ago I was Skyping with Red Pill Junkie and the subject of mandalas came up, a sort of visual geometric symbol that people report seeing often within a spiritual context. As with many realizations I have this one popped up while deep in thought and immersed in a hot shower. With hot water running on my scalp and my eyes closed I tried to envision a mandala in the fluctuating patterns of colors that naturally pervade my vision when my eyes are closed. I didn’t see mandalas just a light blue washed denim color pattern in my vision. I kept watching the colors and I turned the water temperature up hotter as I was getting cold and got a sudden and very distinct feeling ‘this feels like purple’. I realized that the color pattern I was now seeing was a blotchy pattern of purple. I began cycling the temperature hot to cold and back again to see if the color patterns changed, to my delight they did. They shifted to a dark green puddle like pattern and then to a sky blue stripish puddle.With scalding heat a pale blue pattern of fast blizzard snow turned to a blinding hot white color.
Knowing that my perception of heat is overlaid on my vision it has me thinking about what other senses of mine may be crossed. I only see the patterns with my eyes closed or in the dark; It makes me wonder what I’m not seeing by keeping my eyes open.